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Closing out 2020

I know we are already in the new year, but I wanted to close out 2020 with our late annual Christmas letter (if you click on it, it will open larger to read it easier)

and the left over pictures from December to show some of the wonderful memories we have been able to make in the last month of 2020.

I don’t know what 2021 will bring, but I do know that I have the ability to make it a good year no matter what is going on in the world, and that is what I am choosing to do. God Bless.

These are our Bits O’ Bertoch.

Cassie Bertoch

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Busy Bee with the 3!

It’s been a while! I underestimated how busy I would be with 3 kids 4 and under haha. Once again, this may be more of a photo purge because that paints an easier picture than trying to remember the last few months haha. But some cool things:

Bailey: Started her second year of preschool at the Klein Collins Child Guidance Program. She absolutely loves it. There is not a person she meets that isn’t her friend. She is a social butterfly and I have seen her go right up to kids and say “Hi! Im Bailey, and I am four years old. Want to be my friend? Let’s play!” If only making friends were that easy as adults! Haha. She is also a little momma. She is always taking care of her younger sisters and does a great job of making them feel loved. She is my dancing, singing, rainbow coloring, tender hearted, happy 4 year old πŸ™‚

Claire: She is in the thick of her twos! She is adventurous and has no fears! She loves to climb and explore and has shown to be quite the problem solver when she wants to reach something from an out of reach place. She is my content child. She loves to play with her figurines and her little toy horses and is fine by herself, or with others, she is good either way. She adores her older sister and is so tender with her baby sister. She is also very tender hearted and very in tune to emotions…at the same time she is also my little feisty one. If she thinks there is someone who is doing something wrong to anyone in her family, she will put her hands hands on her hips, furrow her brow and tell them to apologize haha. Her and Bailey are quite the pair and compliment each other well.

Sophie: She is almost 8 months now and is sleeping much better! Waking up once around 4:30am, which is sooooo much easier on my psyche haha. She is also army crawling/scooting all over the place! She still shows off her toothless grin and big bright blue eyes. She has loved being able to eat more regular foods and I have to fight for my own plate at the dinner table lol. She watches her two older sisters with awe and admiration and is very patient with all of their love haha. She is a huge momma’s girl and can even get jealous when her sisters are in mommas lap instead of her. lol. She is a ray of sunshine and her smile can light up a room. Her lusciousness is irresistible!

I am one lucky Momma with these wonderful girls! We have had some fun adventures over the last few months and made some fun memories: fall fun, trunk or treats, cousin fun, grandma fun, Aunt Bean visiting fun, Nana visiting fun, park fun, date nights, and everything in between!

Enjoy all the pics πŸ™‚

These are our Bits O’ Bertoch.

Cassie Bertoch

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These are the Golden Years

I had an epiphany the other night. I have been mulling over it for the last couple of days. I was laying in bed after nursing my youngest daughter and couldn’t fall back asleep. I was just listening to the quiet house and the stillness of it all. It had been a bit of a tough day. I had been cranky with zero patience. I didnt really engage with the girls and I pretty much just griped at them all day while I counted down to bedtime. But as I layed there in the stillness of the house, I felt sad. I missed them. The guilt came crashing down on me as I realized what the day must have looked like from their perspective. I wanted to just run into their rooms and whisk them out of bed and hold them in my arms. I realized that one day the house will always be as quiet and still as it was at 2am. There won’t be anymore sticky kisses and small arms squeezing around my neck. I have only 14 years until I start the process of kids leaving, and a short 18 years before they are all gone. And realistically, I stop being the ‘apple of their eye’ quite a few years before they turn 18.

The epiphany that I had was that these are the golden years. I have been living too much into the future. And to be quite honest, I have always been this way. I am a planner at heart. But the bittersweetness of that mentality is that I am usually always looking 5 steps ahead instead of being in the present. On more than one occasion I have found myself saying “I cant wait until they are -blank- age because then we can do -blank-.” or “Once we reach -blank- milestone, maybe things will be easier.” I realized that I am wishing away these years. And it hit me like a ton of bricks. My whole life I have wanted to be a Mom. You can ask any of my elementary and middle school teachers. On those assignments of ‘What do I want to be when I grow up,’ I always had Mom at the top of the list.

And I have come to find out that Motherhood is freaking hard. There have been many days where I just wanted to lock myself in my room to be left alone for five minutes and not be needed, or split up a fight, or clean another mess, or change/wipe another poopy tushy.

But while I am in the throes of holding the fort down and surviving… I forget to enjoy. To slow down. To turn off autopilot. I don’t want to live in the future and miss out on the very moments I waited my whole life for. THESEΒ are the years where we will all sit around the table and go “remember how great we had it when we were all together?”
I don’t want those times to be “remember when Mom was always on her phone?” or “Mom was always yelling at me,” or “I don’t really remember us doing anything fun other than watching tv.”
I saw an article on Facebook about a second grader who wrote about wishing the phone was never invented because their mom doesn’t pay attention to them. It ripped my heart out. Partially because I know that when I review my days, I see a lot of myself on my phone, or just simply zoned out to the tv or something else. Ive known it for a while and have done some attempts to change, but it hasnt really stuck.

And then I had my 2am epiphany. These are the prime years of my life. Not high school. Not college. NOW. These are the magic years. The years they still believe in Santa Clause and get giddy Christmas eve in their beds. The years where parks and splash pads are their bread and butter.Β The years of nursing snuggles, funny toddler comments, toothless grins, matching dresses, onesies, baby teeth, crazy curly haired blurs, piggy back rides, tea parties, dance parties, calling out for me to hold them at 3am, forts, stuffed animals, tiny painted nails, pb&j crustless sandwiches, coloring books, 3 car seat minivan adventures, and hearing “i love you so much momma.”

I want to soak in these next 18 years and jam pack them full of memories and smiles and hugs and laughter and conversations and love. Im by NO MEANS a perfect parent. I would be a fool to think I’ll never gripe at them again, feel overwhelmed, or want to lock myself in the bathroom for five minutes of peace. However, I am hoping that those will be fleeting moments. Far and few in between. Blips of needing to recenter myself and start fresh.

These are the years that I still have some influence and ability to affect my children’s decisions and teach them the things they need to know to help them navigate through life. This is my last year before Bailey starts full time kindergarten. My last year when all my babies are home more than they are gone.Β 18 years will go by in a blink. I mean, it’s already been 10 years since graduating high school. Adam and I have already been married almost 7 years. My oldest is already 4 years old…and it happened in a blink! And I know I am going to blink again and Sophie will be 18, Claire will be 20, and Bailey will be 22, and I will be left with a quiet house.

These are my golden years. And I will no longer wish them away.

These are our Bits O’ Bertoch.

Cassie Bertoch

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Rexburg – The First Chapter of Our Lives

So with us moving next month, it is a bit of a bittersweet moment. We are ready to start the next chapter in our lives…but we have to acknowledge the chapter we have spent in Rexburg, Idaho:

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We wouldn’t have even met and been in Rexburg if it weren’t for us going to school here at BYU-Idaho. I always swore to myself that I wouldnt even get married until I finished my education…but then Adam swept me off my feet and we got married a year before I graduated. Now Adam is getting his Bachelor’s as well πŸ™‚ The Spori building is basically where I lived at because it was the Communications building. We would have taken a picture of the Psychology building, but it was under construction and looked ugly…

IMG_4103 So I know this photo was posted in a previous blog, but this is where it all started for us πŸ™‚ Our singles ward hosted an opening social at Klub Karaoke in Rigby, Idaho and we started a great friendship.

IMG_3574 I was living at Baronnessa Apartments while we started this journey of friendship and love. The apartment was not my favorite, in fact the managing was poor and the apartments themselves were old and a bit run down. We ended up having black mold for months before we realized it, no wonder we were always sick when I lived here! Not to mention…the towing sign that Adam is shaking his head about…they aren’t kidding! Adam had his WRX towed during that time…which eventually led to its long history of breakdowns and eventual trade in for our KIA.

IMG_3500 This beautiful area is towards Driggs, Idaho and it is the first place/date that Adam and I went on that led to more romantic feelings between us. At the time it was still covered in snow, but we did climb that hill in the back and had a good time just talking to listening to music on the drive there as well.

IMG_3531 The sand dunes in St. Anthony are also a big landmark in our relationship because that is where we really got to know eachother on a deeper level for the first time. Me, him, and Merinda went star gazing and had very meaningful conversations, along with the many times we returned ourselves to have bonfires and cuddles in the back of our truck.

IMG_3578 Porter Park will always be special to us because this is where Adam proposed to me πŸ™‚ proposal

IMG_3575 After we were engaged, we moved apartments out of the moldy death to Northgate and Southgate as it used to be called. Now it is called The Gates. Those apartments were awesome. We didnt have the best of roommates in that place, but at least we were engaged and had eachother anyway πŸ˜‰

IMG_3576 Because we didn’t enjoy our roommates, we would watch movies in the back of my truck here at the Magic Suds laundry mat because it had free wifi haha many nights we escaped here πŸ™‚

IMG_3569 This is the best place to watch sunsets here in Rexburg. Adam and I used to go on drives and talks, we seemed to always end up here to watch the sunset overlooking the valley. Beautiful!ResizedImage_1372391008215

IMG_3568 This park used to not be blocked off. Adam and I used to come here alot as well on our drives. In fact, when Adam and I first hung out, my truck tire had popped here and we had to get it towed back to the city and I was freaking out. Adam put his arm around me for the first time and calmed me down…that’s when I knew he was good for me πŸ˜‰ We also would come and light off little fireworks in this area, or just to come talk. sparklers 326360_145580612208770_202348243_o

IMG_3580 Duck pond has been another favorite place for us to come when we were dating, engaged, and even now that we are married. We would bring bread to feed the ducks, go exploring in the little wooded area, or even walk the track along the edge πŸ™‚

IMG_3586 Beaver Dick Park is the place to come and camp! Adam and I road our bikes here, camped here, and even waded through the flooding that occurred a couple years ago. It has brought many smiles.

IMG_0920 Of course if we mention Beaver Dick, we cant forget the shooting area that is just past it. I didnt get into shooting guns and really enjoy it until I met Adam and he taught me everything I needed to know about gun safety and the awesome uses for it.

IMG_3579 If you are planning a date in Rexburg, Kiwi Loco Frozen Yogurt is the place to go! Adam and I have been on countless Kiwi Loco runs…and we have never been disappointed.

IMG_3587 IMG_3589 Green Gables apartments is the first apartment we have ever lived in. It is home to many memories and first experiences of married life. 858 Anne Street #2 will always be dear in our hearts πŸ™‚

And last but not least…the Rexburg temple. IMG_3558 The place we got married and have returned to many times to do worship and gain comfort and knowledge. This temple will always hold its own special spot in our hearts πŸ™‚

So there you have it. A walk through Rexburg and the memories it gave us. I am forever grateful for the experiences I have shared here with Adam, and I know we will have many more to make in the next chapter of our lives πŸ™‚

These are our Bits O’ Bertoch.

Cassie Bertoch

 

 

 

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