I have been trying to internalize this scripture for the past couple of months.
On a side note for those who are unfamiliar with the Doctrine and Covenants, otherwise abbreviated as D&C: “The Doctrine and Covenants is a collection of divine revelations and inspired declarations given for the establishment and regulation of the kingdom of God on the earth in the last days. Although most of the sections are directed to members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, the messages, warnings, and exhortations are for the benefit of all mankind and contain an invitation to all people everywhere to hear the voice of the Lord Jesus Christ, speaking to them for their temporal well-being and their everlasting salvation.” (A blurp from the introduction of D&C). If you’re curious as to what members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints believe, please feel free to look around this website 🙂 www.lds.org
These last few months there have been some changes in our plans for our little family. Our original plan was to rent an apartment in Spring, Texas near Adam’s family after graduation, while he looks for jobs in the area and we save for the next few years for a house. Well, through many prayers, we received a very strong prompting that Spring, Texas is not where we ultimately need to settle down. Katy, Texas, which is about an hour Southwest of Spring, Texas is where we need to be. And not only that, but we have been inspired to look for buying a house first instead of renting for a while. Adam and I were both shocked. First at the very blatant feeling upon our hearts that this is the new plan, but also that the plan was changed. We all know how much I love change…..
So we have been putting in applications and were thinking, okay, since we got this amazing answer to our prayers, we should get a call back soon for a job and get on house hunting and we can have everything packaged nice and neatly for our move. Wrong again. Although Adam has been making amazing headway on his resume (passing his licensing exam, getting his LCDCi, and building up great experiences through his therapy) we haven’t heard anything back. Without some kind of promise of a job, we cannot get a loan for a house…which means we are back to square one in everything. Well, since I am the queen of freak outs…I was freaking out majorly. I am 9 months pregnant and we have no set place to live and no secure job and my security meter is running on empty! Poor Adam got a very anxiety filled earful of worries the last couple of weeks. So we continued to pray hard and I received Priesthood blessings that gave me great comfort. This is a trial of our faith. We know the end goal. Living in Katy. We know that once Adam graduates and can make efforts in person, we will be able to get a job more effectively. Of that I have no doubt. But the process between point A to point B is foggy. I have nothing to go on other than the strong answers from the Lord to get to Katy and trust Him. I have felt those words in my heart numerous times. Trust Him. The scripture comes back to my mind in D&C 63:9 “But, behold, faith cometh not by signs, but signs follow those that believe.”
This is the faith part. Going when the Lord says go and trusting that He has a plan for us. Luckily we have been blessed along the way. My amazing in-laws have graciously told us we can stay with them during the transition time. Which is a huge blessing because otherwise we had no place to go….and my pride can get in the way of me reaching out for help. Something I am not proud of….so luckily my mother in law is in tune to what we need as well. And they will be coming to help us pack and drive down for our journey south. I was stressing over how we were going to drive two vehicles and a u-haul, with a toddler and a newborn. So I am definitely grateful for their help! And I am grateful for their support and my family’s support as well. Buying a house in Texas is a pretty permanent decision, and I know it is hard being farther away from my family in Utah. But they have been so supportive and loving and understanding. Now I just need to convince them that Texas is the place to be……. 😉
So all in all. We will be moving down towards Spring at the end of May. Stay with his family. (Which at least will give Bailey plenty of cousin time! So that is a win win! And me some girly adult time too with my sister in law! Yay!) Adam will be looking for jobs in the Katy vicinity, and then as soon as we can we will be getting on buying a house and settling down. It is funny how ready I am to settle down at this point. Adam has been trying to convince me our whole marriage that settling down somewhere after he grads will be awesome. And it always freaked me out! The military brat in me was fighting it so hard! I couldn’t imagine having one place to live forever! But the Lord was working on softening my heart little by little…until now I am like okay let’s get a house yesterday please! Haha.
This is a learning experience. A pending learning experience because I am still learning. Everyday I still have to remind myself to have faith and Trust in the Lord and have patience. I have other things I need to focus on right now, like the fact that I am 3 weeks from giving birth!
The countdown for Claire is dwindling! I am sooo excited and sooo ready! Being pregnant with a very rambunctious toddler has been quite the experience. 😉 I have had some nerves building up of how I can have two kiddos and give them both the time they need. How I can explain to Bailey that she will have to share mommy and daddy, and basically everything forever haha. But I have noticed even more her tender little heart in action. Seeing babies at church and in the community and how gentle and kind and aware she is of their feelings…she is going to be an amazing big sister. She is always wanting to play with kids (because being with mommy all day gets quite boring) so I am grateful that I have the opportunity to give her a lifelong friend to play with 🙂 Let’s hope I remember that when they argue over who is wearing their clothes 😉
Prayers for us during this journey will be much appreciated. I am praying hard everyday, and I am so thankful for the love and support of so many people towards our little family. 🙂 Now if I can just learn patience this time around…maybe I won’t be tested anymore 😉
These are our Bits O’ Bertoch.