…with help from others.
This has been a very rough week for me. With my classes picking up and waking up early and doing all of my homework and such, the last thing I want to deal with is things going haywire at work. I have been trying my HARDEST to learn everything I can, and I realized that the person before me had this job 40 hours a week, 8 hours a day…and I was trying to do everything in 10 hours a week and 2 hours a day. I was drowning. I felt a bit misguided in what my work load was going to be. I had sooo many responsibilities and I was trying so hard to get everything right. My boss was probably the scariest boss I have ever had in my life…and I have had some interesting bosses. I came home from work almost in tears and emotional rattled everyday. I wouldnt want to do my hw! I am so close to graduation that I cant afford to let my grades suffer. I know Adam has been actively looking for a job, and I know he felt so bad for me coming home everyday miserable and emotional exhausted. I couldnt do it anymore…it wasnt worth it.
So I decided to quit.
I had such an ethical dilemma going on inside my head. I am not a quitter….not with things like work or school…(piano may have gone by the wayside…*cough*) but with this kind of thing, I NEVER give up. It was gut wrenching because I just felt like I was drowning and having anxiety every night about if I got everything done…at work! Not even at school! I was thinking more about work than anything else…and I knew if I stayed any longer, my grades would suffer. Credit load, this is probably going to be one of the toughest semesters because of all the upper classes I am taking.
I had a conversation with my dad and it helped me so much. He told me to prioritize the right things in my life and that quitting a losing team, is really winning. Adam was telling me too that he respects the people who know when it is better for them to walk away….
So I am now done with the Rexburg Standard Journal. I worked my last day today other than a day of training for whoever they decide to replace me with. It was so scary telling my boss. (Adam came with me so she wouldnt freak out…and believe it or not she was the nicest I have probably ever seen her been…haha…I saw this woman chew out a man who wanted to quit because his mom was possibly dying…yeah…needless to say I was a little bit clammy going into her office). But I did it!
Tonight I have had the most wonderful evening with my husband all cuddled up on the couch continuing our Harry Potter marathon. I even have all of my homework done. I am not looking back. I learned so many things already from this experience and what I should and shouldnt have to deal with.
And on the upside…it taught me to organize even more! I didnt know that was possible haha! Im expecting some high GPA numbers this semester 🙂
Thank you to all those who supported me in this decision. I will sleep good tonight.
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